Like many other people in the teaching business I have "off" this week for spring break. What this means for a substitute is no paycheck for a week-yay! yeah, that was sarcasm if you couldn't tell. Ive been supplimenting that with picking up an extra shift at my part time job and a few babysitting days.
So basically a whole week off with nothing to do has left me thinking more and more about NOT having a job. I feel like a COMPLETE failure. I know I've had more than some because I did get hired as a replacement teacher for a few months when some people I know havent even had that-yet I just feel like I am getting nowhere. And lately, Ive been pissed that I'm not getting as many subbing jobs either. It seriously makes me question my abilities. I mean do I suck that much as a teacher that I can't even get subbing jobs? I need to work!!!!
I hate that everyone else my age, who I went to high school with, already have "careers" and houses and the money to do things. I have none of that. I feel like such a loser even though I wouldnt trade my career for theirs any day. It's just so frustrating!! I need to get myself out of this house so I can stop thinking these thoughts and stop the major venting!!
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